I talk to a lot of people who have endured stressful things in their lives and some of these people have a really hard time releasing an image from their mind. People come back from a war and experience PTSD and other issues because of the violent, unnatural things they have witnessed. I have worked with some of these people and as much as I’d like to believe that I could put myself in their shoes, I know there is no way I could understand completely how they feel. I haven’t been subjected to violent atrocities the way that they have, sometimes on a daily basis in some cases. ~ Three days ago something happened here in our country that just about rocked me to the core of my being. Three people were shot at close range by a mentally ill man who had carried a grudge for over 2 years. Two of the people died while one escaped with her life. It is a sad fact when you realize you have become almost used to these stories…they seem to be happening more and more often. The thing about this last one was that the shooter attached a video camera to his chest so the whole thing would be recorded. I made the mistake of watching the video so I saw it unfold as if I was standing right there. I have never experienced the feelings I felt as I watched the video. It was so brutal and cold and permanent…I just can’t understand how people can act in such a horrific manner. And for a full day I felt an uneasiness and a quaking throughout my entire body. My brain felt heavy and bruised and I wondered if this was close to what some people suffer with on a continuous basis after seeing these kinds of things over and over. If it is, my compassion for them is even greater now. Despair and grief are hard emotions to conquer, especially if there is no rational way to explain things that we may have seen. From here on out I will be even more aware of how people are feeling and I’ll try and do a whole lot more to help in any way I can. ~ Yesterday I reached out to a friend and she listened to me as I verbally tried to make sense of this tragedy. After I was done talking to her I did feel better so I imagine it could help others as well. Take the time to be open for others because you never know when it will be your turn to need someone’s ear. This is something everyone can do and it can benefit you as well.
Take care…. Jana